How fair is it that I have a license to take x-rays, a two year degree, and enough experience to get a job that I want, yet here I am jobless, hungry and now sick. I'm getting a CAT scan tomorrow. I'm so torn between wanting the scan to show that something is indeed wrong with my GI tract, and wanting it to be normal. If it is normal than i can just say my GI tract is stupid and go on with my day. But if there is something abnormal I'm screwed. Mom doesn't even want to pay for my CAT scan, how can I expect her to help me with ANYTHING is something is wrong?
I hate that i am completely dependent on my mother. I have no job whatsoever I can't get my own food or insurance or new car. I feel so pathetic, I haven't even received a call for an interview. Even if a job happens to come around, I still will not have my own insurance. PRN is the big thing here. God help a hospital to actually give their employees benefits. I'm seeing the world with my mother's eyes and turning into someone I refuse to be. I need to move away so that I can completely become my own person.
